Published on July 17, 2009 By Locamama In Just Hanging Out

I have been feeling sentimental, nostalgic...maudlin of late.   I think it is horrible to live in the past and always think what's done was so much better than what we have now.  I guess we all have the tendency to look back and see the good and let the bad remain fuzzy.  That said here is some of what I miss from former times and places in my life.

Tiffin, Ohio - born and raised and lived there the first 18 years of my life.  What do I miss?  Knowing everyone.  Living in a town that I could walk to all of my schools, the library, church.  I could ride my bike to the pool or my friends houses.  The funny thing is that when I was young, I couldn't wait to leave.  I thought my town was too small and boring and I longed for the bright lights of a big city. 

Louisville, Kentucky - my young, making my way days.  Honestly when I think of this time, I think more about all the things I should have been doing.  I should have been going out more, making more friends, having more fun.  I was a homebody when I should have been tearing it up.  So Louisville, Derby, Derby pie, dogwood trees... still I never felt a part of the community here.  I always felt like an outsider. 

Jacksonville, Florida - my young married with small children days, struggling financially with a husband seemingly always on deployment.  Still I made friends my own age who had children the same age as mine.  I loved being a mommy when my boys were little, when it was story time, nature walks, itsy bitsy spider. 

Patuxent Island, Maryland - My boys were still little but now there are three. Husband home a little more.  Financially seemed to be getting things together.  I started my home daycare so I was contributing financially to the household but was very chained to the home.  This was a good time that I didn't appreciate at the time. 

Weatherford, TX - my current - Someday I'll look back and miss these days too.  That is hard to imagine now.  I have been in survival mode for probably the last five years.  I'm still kicking. 

 


Comments
on Jul 17, 2009

Looking back is fun, at times.  It is how we measure how far we have come or how far we have fallen.  Like you, I think of the times when the littlies were really little and how much fun it was being "Daddy".  We passed through a lot of places to get here, some good, some not so good.  In spite of all the inconveniences that moving around causes, I think the experiences of seeing a lot of different places and being in other countries was really good for the kids...and the parents.  I miss a lot of our history, too.  But being "Grandpa" is pretty cool, and the Swirling Epicenter isn't such a bad place to be.  Thanks for triggerin' the memory box, Mama!

on Jul 17, 2009

Keep kicking Loca....you know the saying, "You can't go home again?" 

Well its true.  Sometimes its better to remember the way things were and to miss them, than to go back and see the "new."  The new is always so disappointing...or, er has been for moi.

 

on Jul 19, 2009

the Swirling Epicenter isn't such a bad place to be.

lol

Well its true. Sometimes its better to remember the way things were and to miss them, than to go back and see the "new." The new is always so disappointing...or, er has been for moi.
  I agree with that.  You can go home but you can't go back. 

on Jul 19, 2009

I sometimes look back at places, people, and times with sometimes fond memories sometimes not so fond, but it's pretty rare. I like living in the present, but I do know how you feel about those various phases of your life. I think we all do that from time to time.